Next appt: Feb 12, 2008
This is a weblog to document my experiences as an adult going through orthodontic braces and double jaw surgery


But remember this one below??? This is my ugly side profile before the surgery.

Any procedure I choose will be covered by the insurance since they consider this the "whole package" in making my jaws both functional and enhancing my appearance. I haven't really decided what to do yet... I guess the bottom line is what bothers me most and how far am I going to go to correct it. I think I most likely lean towards the Botox injections because my chin does get really wrinkly and I hate it. I have a picture of my "wrinkly" chin! This picture doesn't really show the wrinkles that well, but I see it every time I close my mouth. The pictures I've posted previously actually show the wrinkles more. Maybe I'm just being overly critical of my appearance, but I guess when you go through surgery, you expect everything to be perfect.
Don't get me wrong, I am still very happy with my overall results. I look different and better, I think. I just have to get used to my new face. The emotional aspect of it gets better each day. I took a picture of myself today to mark my 12-week progress... I am beginning to like my new smile! Just can't wait until I get my braces off!! 7 more months I think.
I have about 5% swelling left. It's really minor - primarily on my left side of my face (right on the picture) near my nose where the titanium plate is. The solid lump I mentioned on my previous blogs is still there and will probably be there to stay. It doesn't hurt and doesn't bother me much unless I press on that area. Even with the pressing, it doesn't hurt so I don't think I will get it removed (although it was an option). For the most part, it's unnoticeable. I really don't want to go through another surgery again!
Diet:
I've been eating a lot more foods now. I've moved up to chewable foods although I try to be careful of extremely tough foods. Just recently, I am able to eat chicken, fish balls, thin potato chips, etc. It's a lot of work to chew these foods... but I figure, if I always take the easy way out by eating only soft foods, then my jaws will never learn to chew and bite. So I'm forcing myself to work a bit -- of course, I know my limits. No calamari and beef for me yet! I've gained back about 3 lbs I think. I don't pay much attention about my weight. I just want to eat at this point!
Emotion:
I feel better now in accepting my new look although I won't say I'm 100% happy yet...maybe because I still have my braces on and they are looking more noticeable than before. The rubber bands only make it worse. I am OK with my face when my mouth is closed (i.e. the picture above). But when I talk and smile with my mouth open, it's a different story. Last week, I felt so depressed about my nose, which is now more tilted up and flatter than before. My nostrils are more noticeable, which makes my nose looks like Ms. Piggy. I think this is the one change that I HATE THE MOST. I tell myself this is not the final product yet. I'm still improving every day and will see the subtle changes in the months to come.
Today is 5-weeks since my jaw surgery. I've included a picture I took today to mark the occasion. I'm still tight and a bit swollen on my left side (right side on the picture). I've been staring at the mirror at least 10 times a day. I don't know if I've learned to like my new look yet. I don't hate it, but I don't know if I like it yet. Believe me, I get my valleys and peaks once in a while when I look at myself. It's hard on the psyche. Maybe because I'm still swollen and part of my face look lop-sided. I think I look OK if I have my mouth closed. But once I open my mouth, I look weird...especially when I try to smile with my teeth. I look like I'm putting on a "fake" smile. It's hard to explain it but it doesn't look good. Even my husband made comments that I don't have my old "smile" anymore, which I really liked. Even though I had a huge underbite, I smiled showing only my upper teeth and was able to conceal my protruding lower jaw.